The Death of VenusIf there lived in the world a manas rugged and as strong as I,who could forbear with me yet go against,who took to the black woods and the silver hillsmostly unafraid--who savored salt and the lay of furwith fingertips of dirt and weather, whose lips rolled words like smoke, like fog-I would creep into his arms in the prologue of the night,air sweet with the scent of new-cut hay, alive with the nightjar's call.
Own SkinI bought myself a Moleskineto emulate Picasso, Hemingwaywas never seen without hisin canal-side cafes, Spanish bull rings.My fingers grease its ebon spineover and over in tactile searchfor some hidden leak of creative essenceI found Dante's housedown an old narrow streetalongside a crowd of German touristsI did not enter only staredat his stones, the exterior.The hotel room is filledwith the buzz of the alleyway below,restaurant kitchens' backdoors openingfor cooks, waitstaff, rubbish bags and oaths,effusive shoppers admiring new pashmina scarves haggled from vendorsin the adjacent market square.I close t
Desolateif you are parched tonight,the pale of your lips crackedwith thirst for that whichwill not claim you;if you hunger -the deep and shallow collapsing into slivered vibrations;if blindness rejects you, saysno, watch now. this is the way of it;if you are breathing the worldinto cinders, inhaling each poisonon purpose, striving toward an apocalypsebecause that is chaoswe can categorize,then you may understand.
leavetakingi. the world is brighter where dregs of strangers' revels remain --i keep this half-light for my own.ii.i'll stay until the wind sighs a scotch-and-smoke cliché, til the Muscadet's slipped from the lip of my wayward hello.(i know you're there before you do.)iii.your night is told in patchouli-pulse wanders; mine,in whorls of liqueur-breath. come close and i'll find the warp through the weft, the trails telling talesin synaesthesia -- Platinum Blonde's been 'round and gone. iv.(-- closer, find syllables strewn in an exhale's wake; stolen from my throat- ful of careless farewells, spin and sway
Drown MondaysThe best way I foundto catch my seven-twenty trainis to miss the seven-o-five, be lateand grow a glut of yinfrom the corpses of yangsdrown mondays to breathe tuesdaysbut I nibbled cake and kept it too;I caught the seven-o-fiveand the hands fell off the clock,fell off my wristwatch
Of Half-Filled WordsShe is not a flutterbird.Her fingers are skittish,her smile is not.Do not fear that you willdrive it away.Sadness is her fumbling limb.It is unwanted, yetnecessary.When it is Januaryshe will tell you,"I am still struggling.And I am becoming so many peopleall at once.A conglomeration of beauty thatI have managed to mangle.Please, do not be sad for me."Sometimes her sorrow ismeant for you. But mostly her.Those specks and spotsof ocean storm lullsreveal her truths:ones she does not wantto extract from herself.Her heart is not a rabbit.When it beatsfaster, faster, faster,you need notrun harder
Birth of PoetryI tangled my fingers in the curls of the universe,pulled. The earth fell out: round, warm, spinning.Awkward and shy, she wondered how she got here; how a rock that got wet and grew moss could be significant.So I scooped her up in my fingers, breathed her scent:(lilies and oceans and ozone and forests and fish and birdsand whales and rain and the empty elegance in wolf howls)death and life. I found chaosand knew beauty.
the hanged manThis little red book you call the human body:take it up and shake it. Shake the flaking pages out of it, shake it from endpaper to endpaperuntil the last of the phrases are gone; shake ituntil it's aching and empty, the soul of a bird.I will give you new words.
Rooibos TeaBreathe deep the chai hazePicasso's djinn,a muse of eggshells and grandma's lace tablecloths,cradles the tea kettle to her chestand abandons Latin words and namesflotsam and jetsam dribblingirrelevant among the little red tea leaves;the driftwood of genus and species bumpingagainst the shores of the South African scrublands.She hovers orange and indigo,a quavering flame of dreamsand drained tea dregsdivination with a soft-spiced voiceat the bottom of the mug,never quite gonea flock of Van Gogh crowsfrozen in their hayfields.
to Yellow Plumto Yellow Plum (in blue china bowl): afternoon's slit of sun slips between thick curtains & woos you to ripeness. it chooses you not for flecks of honey-russet held low in your seam of shadows, nor your symmetry & swell; but because you slink in shade, sink behind green pear & clementine & cannot hide from each spear of light that ricochets through-- even now nested warm against these lips even now: a tea-stain stone hugging close the trashbin floor.
hypergraphiashe writes in the empty spaces between the wordsbetween the world,world-weary fingers and toes and pengrips, knivesletter-opener swords, typewriter machetesarm-wrestling with fate and the universe on a piece of paper,computer screens painting faces with colorsstained-glass hyphenated hue-tint-shade gloryshe waits.she is patient.she's their patient, doctors and nursesemergency room, operating room, clinical studystethoscope childrenthey wish fervently to cut her open.her insides will be beautiful, they say,beautiful and pink and full of words.unwords, she says.she writes on her skin, on napkins and paper bagsi
stefanshe stood on your dockin black pearls, and nothing more -wet feetand the asian dream.you loved herbutwhen the snow fell on the dock, the following winteryou couldn'tremember why.
After TuesdayElizabeth,I will not live like this anymore.Not anymore.There's a small Universe to the West,that sits idle in Autumn,I will be there.Hinged on all sides,by suicide maples that fall from the trees like droplets of blood,and that old Raven (the blackbird that taught us Canasta on the lawns by Cedars Lodge,)he hovers quietly above me there, in the azure skylike a guardian,and those two shining moons Elizabeth,the ones we happened uponthrough the windowpanes,between our screams and shouts last Tuesday night,in this Universe, those moons weep misty vanillas across a falling horizon and I am free,yes, I will
SalemI.the bright scarlet egg of dawnnests in my head.when it is time, it will crack myskull like a shelland be born.II.I have a witch's fingers and awitch's eyes, rough pewter lensesthrough which I see the world.I have sabotaged their crops,I have plagued their children,I have eaten their livestock in the night (so they say)and I hear the whispers in the streets.they will be willing to killfor their conviction, thoughI am not willing to die for it.III.I am no longer human.I've been brandedwith an ugly markof fear and desperation,one terse syllable that cutslike a switch.IV.a thin reddish line
The SiegeThe first mile is always the easiest. —Kyle Lynn to me, circa 2006Tell that to the ghosts,men soaked in sand and blood spray,storming the shores of Normandy.First Infantry's sprint through coastaltrenches, up bluffs, under ruptured drays.Tell that to the ghostshuddled in half-channeled holes,a captain's dash through shrapnel, graystorm on the shores of Normandy.A German boy adrift in the compostof his legs, his elbows' grand flail.Tell that to the ghostsripped in four by mortars postedover Omaha. Dawn's evenly keeled decaystorming the shores of Normandy
Red BoatRed boat in the harbour,commercial trawler amidst the bluelike a gunshot-woundon a cop's patrol shirt
TonesA frosty slush of mud, clammycough syrup with its copper-tangthe rumbling buzz of lawnmowers,smeared sunscreen, white and greasythe scent of an ashtrayold ghost of a smoker:winter is insipid, drearysummer is a brassy boreI want the fresh wet buds of springnascent beneath my fingertips,I want crisp breeze and dying leaves,I want soft flames falling
Eternal ReturnRainwater poolsin the ruts in your drivewaygrey and gravellywinter is here againwet and windy againdamp and clammy,a recurring drainage issueyet lovely stillpinned in your bedroomabove a booklamp, the headboard,one slow-dried rosecoloured like chiantian Nth anniversary token,a keepsake, a memory,twin bedside tablescluttered with novels,your handpainted pasta bowlsfaded from a hundredimprovised pasta sauces,from passata and capers,ricotta and dolcettostains on the marble coasters,deep red rings occludingthe florentine piazzascene as sepia-tonedas it always wasand always will bethe familiar
CavingYou call me a beautifulfool, a man in lovethe perfect patsy through and throughdeluded, wrongheaded, impossibleyour face, my pearlso palely luminoustorchlight flickers, fails, your budget batteries fizzleinto electrochemical obsolescencebeneath the advent of natural phosphorescence:this cave, this lava tubefull of glowwormsspinning their threadsfor light happy midgesa weir of waiting mouths,a silent lantern festivala world far removedfrom glow-in-the-darkstickers, stars and streaking cometsstuck to the cracked ceilingabove my childhood bedroomthe furies are waitingthe furies are waitinga m
7.34mmA simple measurementcan make a manlose himself; a blurring, no morethan a grainy smudgea scant 7.34mm longthis rice-grain, seven weeks oldwith one hundred and twenty nineheartbeats per minuteall this, from a mere sesame-seed of a heart
every line counts and it all fits so well together.